It’s a movie about three people, but I can’t have a name in it.

I have always loved you..quietly..

It was one of the best things that has ever happen to me in my life, even though it hurts me badly sometimes.

I want to be honest because of u,

I want to follow my heart and be brave once for the name of love.

I have made up my mind from the very beginning.I do know what I am doing.

“I will greet this day with love in my heart.”

“Love the failures for they can teach us; love the kings for they are but human; love the rich for they are yet lonely; love the poor for they are so many; love the young for the faith they hold; love the old for the wisdom they share; love the beautiful for their eyes of sadness; love the ugly for their souls of peace”

Prayer: 2008 summer

It was an insanely busy holiday. Every minette I spent with mom and grandma was precious and valuable.

Every day I left to work, I knew by the time I got home, someone would be here for me, this place could finally be called HOME. Now it’s just back to an empty house.

For the first time in my life, I would read news paper to look for “what’s on in Perth this week”. I started to take notice of good resturants around the area.

I got up at 6 every morning to go to work so I could finish a bit early. I did not mind.

I was out every night, I  could not go to bed till at least 11 every night. I was happy and satisfied.

I knew I was doing everything for the people I love dearly and value muchly. I was simply proud and ....pround...

Mom, I know I have never said this you. I was just stubbornly hoping that you could read it from everything I have done. I love you dearly. You are the most important person in my life. You are irreplaceable . I started to realise how much I love you and our family, how much I care about you and everyone at home. You make me a better person, you make me stronger, braver, more patient and responsible.

There are a lot of things I could not tell you and will not discuss with you yet. I am honestly hoping one day you will remember what I said today.. right now...I  have tried and tried and right now still trying hard to be the one you wanted me to be. I do not give a fuck about what other people say and think about me. The only reason that I have not given up is simply because I will not allow anyone hurt you, especially from me.

I want to be a writer one day, I want to use my pen to write down all the feelings I have felt; people I have loved; things I didnt understand and people’s behaviour  that I finally started to acccept in all these years;the little thing hat moved me; the simple lyrics that touched my heart.

Choir Boy

I keep telling myself” do what u wana do, be what u wana be, live your life, follow your dreams, enjoy the every second that’s passing by, if there is one day you seeing yourself old and grey in the mirror, you are going to say” what a live I have had”…

But sometimes I just feel I am living in a lie; life is just a big joke…

There r so many things I don’t understand, and I don’t understand why I don’t understand these things which seem ordinary for other people.

God gave us one face, but we made another one ourselves. We tell each other it’s what we should all do.

When all the lights r on, the end of the movie is just an empty theater.

Our heart is a crystal container; the broken pieces are melted in a boiling hot chest and come out as tears.

Who tore the sun up? The pieces were left on the ground in that beautiful forest.

The real pain arrives softly and holds you from the back tenderly.

Sitting down by fire, I started to think of all of those things that have been happening in the last couple of years. You, me, everything, everybody, happiness, sadness, joy, sorrow, laughter, tears, the song we sang, the book we read, the painting we loved, the ice-cream we had, the bed we shared, the CD we picked together, I know ur favorite colour, u know my favorite poem. These memories are still fresh as yesterday. But can anyone please tell me “where is the “you” that I once loved? Where is the “me” who once loved you?”

Dear god, please don’t let me give up on my dreams, please don’t take my faith away.

Those words were from ages ago. I picked them up from a little fold in my laptop, I thought if this was me, I should not be afraid of looking back.

I sometimes just dont want to get hurt, I sometimes just dont want to hurt anyone.

I sometimes just dont know what to do, then sometimes I know what I am suppose to do, but I just can not do it.

If you ask me whats the longest word I know, I'd tell you" M.E.M.O.R.Y"

My life is not perfect, I hate it when people say so.

I am not perfect, not even close,but I'd like to be a better person. for those I love, for those who love me and for you.

You can be as judgemental as you like. I know I am a good person.

I dont care if you dont.

I want people to remember me by my smile, I want you to remember I once upon in my life said I love you.

Please kindly say no and let me go.

I close my eyes and tell myself you are already very happy.

I am not a saint, but I am not a siner.

I wana say thank you to the people who ever helped me. I want to make sure you know that I am truelly thankful and I love you all.